NOT cool....

Yesterday I got a text from a buddy. We live close by and have been friends for a long time, but I don't really see him much. I get it though, he has kids and we both have our own lives...no biggie, and not to mention, I sorta hibernate/keep to myself in the winter. It's not you, it's me...I'm just like that. But anyways, he texts me, wants to know if I'm up for a night of drinking, pizza and video games. Fuck yeah! I'm pumped. So, I spend the day prepping for the night, ie, not eating a lot during the day, saving it up for the pizza. I've been flying solo for a few days, and I have to say, I've been enjoying it a little too much...but this will be a good time...

I text him, ask him what kinda of pizza, do i need more bourbon, stuff like that...he tells me he will have to check with the wife. No worries, I dig. Then I get this text, it simply says "I'm out...is that cool?" Uuuuummmm, well, not really. See, I'm a pretty smart guy, I can read between the lines. Oh, shit, I mean are there really any lines to read between?? Obviously his wife is not a fan. I'm not sure why, but she isn't. I can deal with that, I really can.

A few years ago, this would have bugged me, really bugged me. I would have wanted to know what I did and why she doesn't like me. But now, honestly, it does sting, a little, but I over it. I'm over her. If she can't see the awesomeness that is me, well, then, that's her loss.

I'm not just saying this so everyone who reads this will tell me how awesome I am. Really, I'm not. This is my declaration that it's officially over. I will never be rude or mean to her, I'm just not that guy. If I tell her to her face, then...well, I won't see my friend anymore, and I'm not ready for that. But I do know my value as a person and a friend, and quite frankly, she can't afford me.